I was fifteen or fourteen when I first got drunk at lunch. I lived across the street from my school and would go home for lunch sometimes. One day, I noticed my dad’s bottle of vodka. He didn’t usually keep hard liquor around the house, his drink was beer. Coors. Which he believed to be purer than the other beers because it was German and they didn’t use union labor.
I ate my peanut butter and jelly sandwich and looked at the bottle. I can’t remember why but I decided to try it. So, I poured out a nice stiff drink into a glass of orange juice and drank it down.
The heat of the booze filled me from stomach to forehead. I think of it now like a video game, where the character is almost out of health, takes a potion, and you see his health meter refill. Alcohol refilled my health meter. And when it topped me all the way up, that health meter sparkled and I felt the angel’s kiss on the top of my head.
I don’t remember that day at school. I know that I didn’t get into trouble. No one noticed that I was drunk. Or probably more accurately, the people who noticed that I was acting weird or smelled funny didn’t do or say anything.
I think it was a Friday. Or maybe it was the next day. It was over 30 years ago and I have since drank a lot of alcohol so let’s just say it was a Friday. I remember that Mom and Dad were going to go out that night, that they said they were going to stay out late, and that I was in charge. All I remember clearly was being excited that I could stay up late, watch George Romero’s Night of the Living dead, and drink again.
“They’re coming to get you Barbara!”
I sat up alone, watching a zombie movie, drinking vodka. How was I supposed to know that sitting alone in my living room, watching old movies, and drinking half a bottle of booze would be the pattern of my life?
When I drink now, that’s what I do: I sit and watch TV alone. I had to quit going to bars. When I drink my acid tongue gets me in trouble. I lash out at people at the bar and online. I say things I regret. Sometimes I even hurt my good friends, people I love and respect.
So I quit going to bars, it was too hard to deal with the consequences. Plus, even for a selfish old alcoholic, I knew that drink driving was tantamount to running around shooting a gun off into the air: eventually I was going to hurt someone.
So, for the last 18 months, usually Sunday, after the Arsenal match, after I dropped Avie off at her mom’s. I get out my pack of smokes and a bottle of Whiskey, and drink until I pass out. Then I wake up at 9pm and sometimes I finish whatever whiskey was in the bottle, other times I just toss and turn until I get up at 3am. Then I get up and go to work.
What’s the harm, right? I’m not hurting anyone but myself. Ok, maybe I’m robbing my daughter of a father when she’s 25 and needs him to be there for her.
And I’m not telling anyone this for sympathy. I’m telling you this because the conception is that alcoholics “go to meetings”. But we don’t. We go to work. We write blogs. We pretend to be sober. We pretend that everything is all right. We justify our behavior through a combination of solipsism and abnegation. And when that doesn’t work, we will just punch you in the face, literally or figuratively. And when that doesn’t work, we will hide in some corner of the world watching Zombie movies. Brave people go to meetings. Courageous people deal with their alcoholism.
I don’t want you to respond with empathy, pity, or congratulations. Also, please, don’t ask me for answers. I don’t have them. I don’t speak for AA or psychologists, your therapist, your doctor, or substance abuse counselors. I have no idea what I’m talking about (which never stopped me from writing before! AH CHA CHA!).
The other reason to talk about this openly is because I feel like it’s important to shine light on the cockroaches in our kitchen. If alcoholism, for me, is about lying and hiding, then doing the opposite of that is probably going to be a good thing. Or maybe not! Like I said, I don’t know.
How about that win yesterday over Rennes, eh? Good to see Emery embracing his best attacking players. The crowd was great and we got a clean sheet on top of everything else. Great match, now we move on to play Napoli. The draw was a bit unlucky, I really wish we had gotten one of the weaker teams. Not much else to say about that, really.
Back in 1985 I got in trouble, one of the rare times, usually I get away with the drinking, lying, cheating, and selfishness. I think it was the next night. Dad had been drinking beer and went to get some vodka and it was watered down. He was furious. I had stolen his booze. I think he wanted to beat me. Beat me up. Like you would do to a fellow drunk in a bar who had stolen your drinks or your money. My mom stepped in and I got sent to my room. She always stepped in.
I didn’t have any precocious teen thoughts. I just went to my room and read a book. I wouldn’t even understand any of the complexities and nuances behind any of this for over 30 years. Complexities isn’t the right word. This is just how my family operated. We lied, we stole, we cheated (ourselves and everyone else), we fought terrific battles, had huge blow outs, and all so that we could sit up late at night watching the Living Dead, being the Living Dead.
Heartbreaking, my man. So much pain and loneliness. Your beautiful writing and the community you’ve built on a foundation of sadness and isolation. I suspect I’m not alone in saying there’s group of people here to support you. There’s another way for you. You are loved more than you know.
Having no answers is better than having no questions.
Well put!
Tim, I read nearly all your posts. Every now and then you rock me with your honest reflections on life. I don’t even know why, but it makes me respect you. There is something profound in sharing your pain with the world. In some ways it makes me feel less bad about the fact that life is full of suffering.
I hope you deal with your shitty behaviour, you sound like you know better and it seems like you have reasons to do so. I wish you all the best and send you love from Perth, Western Australia.
Cool. Just would like to know where the ‘facem’ is so I can protect myself when (if?) I see you. You already ignored my offer to meet once in London 🙂
Last time you mentioned you’d quit drinking. Is that still true? Regardless, I’m glad you shared. All the power to you.
How was the crowd good? It seemed the Rennes fans were louder and apparently the stadium wasn’t anywhere near full. It was weird. Rennes were niggly and dirty throughout the tie, but I guess they couldn’t have been happy with Uefa about the switcharoo and the Lacazette reprieve. AMN has been good at RWB the last few games. Hope his progress continues.
I was initially annoyed we had to get Napoli, but now I’m looking forward to it. I believe we should beat them. After that, we get a reunion with either Cazorla (Ojala!) or with Coq and Gabriel.
Monchi might be going to Sevilla. They are openly talking about it and they sacked Machin. Good. I wasn’t keen on him. Maybe Overmars will be the one who gets it, though Robert Pires has said in the past he would like the job.
Sad news from NZL. Words fail me in times like these, but all my love to those affected.
Thank you Tim.
In my business, it’s a given that it is overrun with addicts and gifted people so the quality of this post is one I recognize.
You request no sympathy so none given. This is a strange, dark message from what is probably a brilliant mind. One which I hope one day finds and stays in the permanent light it deserves.
We should all be Santo Cazorla in our next lives. Often smiling, kissing our forearm tattoos and being irrepressible.
Brave to write about it. That’s not hiding but being honest. May you keep on being so. And keep on writing. Kudos for opening up.
Also, I think the Black Panther mask just maybe the coolest goal celebration in Arsenal history.
Like Son-of1-Nil, O know believe that Auba is not really from Gabon but is a Wakandan warrior. Let’s face it, if Wakanda had a football team it would win every African Cup of Nations and World Cup tournament that it competed in. Hugely unfair.
“…coolest goal celebration…” I still prefer Henry’s knee slide in front of the Spurs fans (the statue) or Henry after scoring on his comeback debut vs Leeds, personally. Or Bergkamp covering his mouth with his hand.
Didn’t say greatest but coolest. They are not necessarily one and the same. I agree it’s hard to beat Titi’s knee slide. Isn’t that the statue at the Emirates?
That’s the one!
What was the story behind the Bergkamp one? I’ve always wondered.
“I like the celebration…[I] curled it into the top corner. Then I ran off with my hand over my mouth as if to say ‘what a goal’. It was probably a bit arrogant but we enjoyed it at the time.”
Number 6, from http://www.arsenal.com/news/features/10-out-of-10
it was hella-arrogant but it was a testament of bergkamp’s commitment to technical excellence. dennis earned the right to celebrate that goal that way.
btw, i absolutely loved the mask and the switch from spiderman to black panther.
Thank you. I presumed it was something to do with media stories at the time. This is cool.
Very thoughtful piece. It couldn’t come at a better time for me, because I have had to stare at some of my problems and I must admit, it is what makes us human.
I came here for the football, and see what I got.
Thanks Tim, you’re touching more lives than you know.
Mate, listen. EVERYONE is dealing with something. The negative chatter in our heads wants us to think that we are alone and everyone else is perfect and has no problems. We are all dealing with something. Not all of us have the humility or honesty to share on a blog with strangers though.
Listen mate. Second thing I want to say is that, this is the burden of genius. Genius always comes with eccentricity; the two go hand in hand. You need an obsessiveness otherwise their can be no genius. Genius really is 99% perspiration 1% inspiration. The 99% perspiration is the obsessiveness/eccentricity. This eccentricity can manifest in so many ways and some self-destructive. You are a genius. It is easy for anyone to see as soon as they read your blog. I read it once and wont stop now. You also have this eccentricity/obsessiveness that comes with it, that has become manifest in self-defeating way. But you have to overcome it for you and to maximise your potential. You can, if not by yourself ask for help. Everyone comes when you ask for help. You wont believe just how many people come. God, people….everyone comes. Just ask.
This video is deeply disturbing. What sane person could read the Bible and assume that the central message of Christ’s teaching was that you are, or should aim to be, hot and successful and young, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise? Bizarre.
Blessed are the poor in spirit, it says in Matthew…but in American evangelicalism, blessed are the beautiful. It’s disgusting, and I can’t blame anyone who rejects this vapid form of Christianity.
By the way, twice in Genesis, Sarah lets her husband pass her off as his sister, purely out of (his) self interest; the Numbers quotation Joel Osteen offers is about justifying a genocide in Canaan; and the David he talks about as an exemplar of being “valuable” is also someone who did nothing when his daughter was r*ped, he committed ad*ltery, and he m*rdered a husband to protect himself.
I simply cannot understand the health-and-wealth gospel of America. Or rather, Americans seem stuck in the moral economy of the Book of Job, even when that very book highlights the absurdity and violence of such a “gospel.”
mate listen. you misread the message. The point is not that we should AIM to be hot/beautiful/attractive. The point is we ARE ALL beautiful and God loves us all. Like your friends, family spouse. They don’t love us because we are perfect, they just love. Nothing in the message is disturbing. There is so much hateration and negativity and a lot of it we tell ourselves. Don’t listen to negative hateration about yourself. Mate the Bible is full of people that did horrific things and fell well below the standard. God still loved them. You talk about David. You know God called David “a man after his own hart”- this was not because he was perfect by any means. There is only one perfect example in the bible. What we do is not who we are. The point of the message is that when we realise who we are – made in the image of God who loves us…then we act like who we are.. Tim is not an alcoholic he is a genius. It is so difficult to express in English. In Spanish, you know, they have two words for the verb “I am” “ser” and “estar”. Ser is who you are fundamentally. Estar is what you are/doing transiently. So even a genius can do things that are ill-advised. Ok getting so philosophical but mate Bunburyist – you triggered this one…me too I guess
Apologies for rant. I know you mean well.
relax, bun. faith is simply offering a message that tim may not have considered. your view on christianity seems clear but there is a lot of good written in the bible by smart, inspired people that provides direction for individuals who have all kinds off struggles.
the bible has sold more copies than any other book so it can’t be all bad. it’s full of stories about people who had a myriad of problems and were still able to maximize their life potential. these stories are examples of people who are revered despite their significant flaws, not about perfect people. it’s inspired a flawed osteen to make a video.
the main point faith made is when he/she reminded tim that he was not alone and encouraged him to not be ashamed to ask for help. this is the biggest mistake people make because of pride. however, no one has all the answers. if tim want’s help and seeks help, someone will be able to help him. it may even be even someone on this forum that tim absolutely despises. ironically, that’s how things often work out.
I agree with you about the Bible. It’s a rich anthology of books with immense historical, literary, and (for many people around the world) spiritual significance. However, I find it distasteful to interpret the Bible as somehow supportive of a faith based on or promising material or personal success. I think about these rich megachurch pastors, and the people who pay them, and I just don’t see anything Christlike about it. Personal opinion. In general, I have a hard time reconciling my reading of the Bible with what I see in certain evangelical forms of Christianity, but maybe that’s because my dad is an adherent! You should hear us argue!
As for Tim, from what I know of him, religion / faith is something he has no time for, but I could be wrong. Would it bring him peace? Maybe. Regardless, I do appreciate the spirit of Faith’s (and your) comments here.
Faith,
“objectivity injection “, from on the ground local sources reporting at the time Osteen only picked up his game when public pressure and ridicule threatened to harm his money making enterprise.
And just to be clear, what I’m pushing on here is the problem of materialism, not the spiritual or mental benefits of faith, as may be cultivated through reading the Bible. My complaint is that too often in our culture the ‘spiritual’ is conflated with looks, health, and/or wealth, and that, for me, is a slippery slope. Again, personal opinion, and I don’t need to be right about…anything.
Mate, I love your sincerity, I think you are missing it a bit:
” I find it distasteful to interpret the Bible as somehow supportive of a faith based on or promising material or personal success” – mate no one, literally no one, is saying this. Where is this from?
“My complaint is that too often in our culture the ‘spiritual’ is conflated with looks, health, and/or wealth, and that, for me, is a slippery slope”
The whole part of the message is we are ALL beautiful. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Don’t let society have a monopoly on the definition: X, Y, Z is beautiful etc.
Mate if you want to look for Christ-like, look in Christ not in other people. People look at X and say: X your are not Christ-like so I don’t believe in Christ…How does that work? Who is to say who is Christ-like? If you’re looking for Christ-like, look at Christ. Bringing it back to this blog. The message of Christianity is really simple. Love God and love your neighbour like you love yourself. They are really the same love. The problem is, so often we do none. At times we act like we don’t love God, we don’t love neighbour and and, most important, we don’t love themselves but hurt ourselves. Love yourself + Love your neighbour = Love God
We’re not going to agree on this. I maintain that sometimes it’s not even a subtext that some Christian writers, speakers, and televangelists peddle the health-and-wealth gospel. You don’t have to look far. Look up “prosperity gospel”. Even Joel Osteen, who owns two houses — one worth $10m and another worth $3m — is on record as saying: “I think prosperity, and I’ve said it 1,000 times, it’s being healthy, it’s having great children, it’s having peace of mind. Money is part of it; and yes, I believe God wants us to excel … to be blessed so we can be a bigger blessing to others.” I wonder what kind of message this sends to the countless Christians or even non-Christians around the world who live in poverty and suffering (and are destined to remain there)? From what I can understand of the usage of “blessed” in Christ’s teaching, it refers to a kind of peace or happiness, not health and wealth. I also know that he reserved his greatest anger for those who used the temple for commercial purposes, and to the wealthy religious teachers who profited from the poor.
My main point is that the prosperity gospel is indeed alive and well in the US (and elsewhere, too, of course). I’m not saying YOU are saying this, but it’s everywhere present in some of the evangelical preaching in this country, including in the teaching (implicitly or explicitly) of Joel Osteen, who probably spends more on his teeth and hair than I do on my car!
I think the “you’re beautiful and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise” line sounds nice and all, but it also covers a multitude of bad and selfish behaviors. If it’s intended to communicate that all humans have inherent worth, I understand where that’s coming from, but that’s not the same thing as “beauty” (aesthetic, moral, and/or spiritual…and when Osteen advises people to look in the mirror and tell themselves they are “young,” I think you know which of those three things he’s referring to).
I would rather drink myself into oblivion than spend even one minute listening to that fake Christian douchebag.
The FBI have their top ten most wanted list , I have my top ten most punchable faces list.
Osteen’s is at no 2.
This is the guy who lied about his ministry being flooded to avoid helping flood victims, while at the same time asking for donations.
Business people with no faith affiliation made themselves more useful in this time of crisis.
Bunny mate..
You are missing it just a bit. Look mate, look at the message do not get too stuck upon the messenger. The message is Christ, not Joel Osteen. If I get this right, you are unhappy because Joel Osteen said
” God wants us to excel … to be blessed so we can be a bigger blessing to others”
God does want us to be blessed. He does not want poverty, disease. It is our challenge to use our blessingS to help other people, not to tell them that God wants them to be poor/in ill health.. There are enough resources in the world. Are they equally shared? Mate, there is no prosperity gospel. There is just the Gospel. If someone preaches a message that we should use our blessingS to help others, the fact that that person is wealthy does not invalidate that message. What is the problem with preachers having expensive houses, what is the maximum value house a preacher can have.?Does it rise with inflammation..?? Even this is irrelevant. Mate look at the message not the messenger. This is why people are so reluctant to admit their weakness or flaws because people do exactly that; “Look at you: you do this and that, who are you tell me about x, y, z”. Tim has shared with all of us his drinking problem. Does that undermine the validity of his analysis and opinion on the blog. Off course not. Just because Joel Osteen is rich does not necessarily invalidate the message. Listen to the message don’t hate on the messenger. But keeping thinking and believing. Remember Christina Aguiler’s song “Beautiful” was is that about..??
Tom, mate, take a look at this.
https://abc13.com/society/joel-osteen-honored-by-city-of-houston-for-post-harvey-help/3957138/
Really… objectivity injection…
Yeah, pretty sure I’m looking at the message and the messenger here. That “sermon” is a lot of pseudo-psychology nonsense. It’s little wonder that televangelists prosper in a capitalist economy; they sacralize the accumulation of wealth on the backs of the poor, and I think that’s an embarrassment to the message and person they pretend to follow.
Cheers. You’ve been polite. I appreciate it.
Faith. I am Christian. And came to my God late in life.
I live in Houston. Have for 40 years. Had a notion of respect for John Osteen– Joel’s late father that founded the ministry Joel now heads.
I’ve been privy to know things about Joel Osteen that would turn your stomach.
So for whatever reasons Bun saw in that video which may have instinctively turned him away from ‘The Prosperity Gospel’?
I’m in complete agreement with him.
Religion? Are for those that need it.
Faith is for those that believe.
jw1
JW you have hit the nail on the head. This is the whole point. There is something about EVERYONE that will make your stomach turn. We are all dealing with something. No one, not Joel himself is saying he is perfect. This was my 1st message to Tim. We are all flawed and have issues, yes even Joel Osteen. Look at the message don’t hate the messenger. Can we please all stop pretending to be perfect/better and attacking the “evil” rich preachers because they are rich and only opened the church when they were criticised. Let’s be honest like Tim saying
“You guys thought I had it all sorted it out but actually this is me someone who drinks to much.” You know we all have flaws like Tim. We all have done or do things that will make other people’ s stomach turn. Let’s see this in ourselves like Tim before pointing it out everyone else’s: ” hey you are preacher but you do x,y,z” The message is that God loves the flawed “stomach-churning” you..But wants you better. Vj especially for you because you are a Christian. Look in the Bible in Luke’s gospel the Family line of Jesus. They did horrific things..One was a prostitute that changed. One guy slept with a prostitute or pretending to be and then ordered her to be killed for being a prostitute…Mate don’t hate. Just love.
Faith.
Prosperity Gospel runs counter to the teachings of Christ. Period. If you’ve accepted Joel Osteen’s way to live your life? That’s your choice. Please don’t proselytize to me with the preachings of a man I can’t trust. Joel Osteen offers religion to those who can afford it.
The excerpt (and link to article) below are from USA Today– on the aftermath of Osteen’s megachurch turning away the needy at his church following a flood of biblical proportion following Hurricane Harvey in the metro-Houston area.
Only after extensive bad PR– did Osteen open the church to assist those in need.
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Headline:
‘Even if Joel Osteen did the right thing, he lost a chance to teach Christianity’
Excerpt:
“But when people hear that the third largest church in the U.S. said they couldn’t fit a small group of shelter-seekers in a 16,000-seat arena because their basement was flooded, that doesn’t add up.
The casual observer would expect the church to do something. And this church in particular has perhaps a bit more to prove than other churches.
Their lead pastor, Joel Osteen, is notorious for spreading what is widely called a “prosperity gospel,” an watered-down version of Christianity that has an unbalanced emphasis on God’s promises to bless those who follow His commands, rather than personal sacrifice and pursuing holiness.
Osteen’s reportedly $10.5 million mansion and expensive-looking suits contrasts with the biblical directive to eschew wealth and care “for the least of these.” This is a church that proudly displays their building renovation’s price tag on their main website — $95 million, by the way — declares their head pastor “An Inspiration to Millions,” and Trumpishly lists his broadcast audience size, all in the same paragraph.”
https://www.usatoday.com/story/opinion/2017/09/02/joel-osteen-right-close-lakewood-church-but-he-lost-chance-teach-christianity-kirkland-an-column/622215001/
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Thanks. But no thanks– to anything Joel Osteen is selling.
jw1
I feel strongly that if you read the bible cover to cover and really digested the words of all of the collected thinkers and teachers in that book and then came out the other side like Joel Osteen, then you are running a scam. To be more blunt, Olsteen is a scam artist in my view.
I don’t think Christianity is a scam, no more so than any religion, but this particular brand – which allows its priests to be multi-millionaires – is very much not keeping with the word of the Lord or his Son.
really really really well put mate
I support Faith’s comments but perhaps in a less sympathetic way. If you feel that you need help then please have the courage to be honest and ask. It is disingenuous to do it any other way and unfair to your readers and supporters. Your persona shines a light and it is appealing, as least to me. You have the power to let it shine on yourself as well. Don’t f&$k with the audience you’ve built over the years. Please.
I don’t understand how I’m “fucking” with my audience. I’m being honest. I can’t ask you for help. What help can you possibly offer. This is on me to fix. I’m sorry if that leaves you feeling like you’re helpless. Sometimes, most of the times, we are helpless.
I don’t know much about Napoli, but I think we can take them.
Wishing you well, Tim.
I Love you
i remember a weird time back in the early 90s when i found myself, a soldier, sitting in my barracks, drinking alone while watching movies; eerily similar to your predicament. it was weird because i wasn’t what most would call a drinker, yet, i’d adopted this new behavior as part of my daily routine.
after a few months, i just asked myself “what the f*ck are you doing?” sure, i enjoyed alcohol but drinking every day isn’t what i wanted for my life so i simply decided to stop. in fact, i poured the alcohol down the toilet and went for a run that same night.
is there any moral to my story? not really. my ability to stop that behavior on a dime likely implies i wasn’t an addict but i don’t really know. i do know my dad killed himself drunk-driving when i was 14 and i knew that i wasn’t going to die the same way.
ask what you want from life, bro. my daughter just turned 23 last month and calls me a couple of times a week, talking sh*t to for about an hour. most of the time, she’s not talking about anything important but occasionally, she needs perspective from the man she trusts with her life. it’s a beautiful thing to have those moments every week. i thank god for them. hang around for your daughter to call and talk sh*t to you when she’s in her mid-twenties and beyond, tim. in fact, be around for your daughter’s daughter to talk sh*t to you instead of relying on her mom’s stories about how much she would have adored her grand dad and how he would have loved his grand baby.
do the possible, the impossible, the unthinkable if necessary. but do stick around for as long as you can for your baby girl. if you can’t be around, don’t let it be because of your mismanagement of alcohol.
When you feel like you’ve had enough, when you pass a line in the sand you swore you’d never pass, there are plenty Gooners waiting for you on the other side with open arms. You don’t have to live this way. If Tony Fkn Adams can sober up, so can you! Peace, out.
Thanks for sharing Tim. We love you.
Ouch, this was véry revealing and touching. Quite sure that I’m not alone in thinking that this is life. It’s filled with hardship, sorrow, pain and only few, fleeting moments of success and prosperity.
I never knew how to handle it and have used alcohol and drugs as a leverage to even out the road of a rocky path to a quite successful life (compared to what most others would see it). Only I don’t see it. See it more as a wasted life and wasted opportunities where I should have done better.
Thanks for sharing, Tim. It’s courageous, I think, to share things that don’t show us at our best.
So I was about 15 or 16, at a Hindu wedding in Guyana, and my dad had to leave, but left me in the company of close friends and family. I wasn’t exactly a kid either, so it wasn’t a problem. No harm done, except that the guys insisted that I had to “represent the family.” And therefore plied me with every known liquor under the sun, but mostly rum. I didn’t enjoy it. In fact the inevitable drunkenness made me feel unwell, and I crawled into the back of someone’s car back seat and slept it off.
I have a trigger point. Something that I can’t describe kicks in, and I can’t have more. Not even if you bring Scarlett Johanssen to serve it to me. In Caribbean culture, “rum is macho”, in the words of an old calypso. I’ve lost count of the number of Friday after work hangouts in which I’ve been called effeminate for not having that sixth beer.
I’m painfully aware that it’s not the same for everyone. I also wonder if that early intro had anything to with it.
My inlaws are Guyanese. I’ve had several heavy nights on the rum in Enmore
And slightly off topic, this from Szczesny made laugh loud, hard and often. Man, I miss this guy. He’s Arsenal through and through, and boy does he love this club.
https://arseblog.news/2019/03/szczesnys-hilarious-assessment-of-former-arsenal-teammates/?utm_campaign=autotwitter&utm_medium=twitter&utm_source=twitter
Really funny. I miss that guy, how did we let him go?
I’m blaming everything on Gazidis from now on.
A solid strategy.
The Gervinho one was, as they say, savage. Considering the guy even plays in the same country so it’s not like he’s out of sight.
The only thing there is to learn from the bible:
Good fiction sells well.
That article is so…. me. Thanks.
COYGs.
David Ospina has been hospitalized after collapsing on the the pitch and being stretchered off. He took a knee to the head in a prior clash with an onrushing player but was allowed to continue. Two words to say to FIFA and Uefa: concussion protocol. No word yet but this potentially could be a very worrying injury. I won’t speculate but hopes he get well soon.
As of now, Insigne (13 goals, 7 assists), Chiriches (former S**** CB) and DM Diawara will have to get fit from thigh muscles injuries in time to face us.
https://streamable.com/t2kh3
Napoli have tweeted that Opsina is conscious in the hospital.
ugh. did see that collision ospina had with the udinese player. hope he’s okay but that was poorly managed.
ha! chelsea lost to everton in the prem! top four, here we come.
No sympathy will be given.
But for entirely selfish reasons, please find a way to stay beautiful without the bottle.
So we can all enjoy your good writing for a long time.
If an asshole fictional cynic like Constantine can pick himself up, so can you.
Peace!
Tim, you are very lovable and rather admirable. And you have the honesty, the courage and the turn of phrase of the great writers. (And it is now clear to me that it is alcohol that prevented you from seeing the feline elegance, the cazorlesque technique and vision of Fellaini.)
By the way, how would you manage if your daughter were living full time with you?…
Well you certainly know how to set up an impossible demand.
I couldn’t respond with pity even if I wanted to, because that would imply that I think I’m better off than you, and I don’t. I don’t think that because I personally recognise your situation, and I think these problems of self-worth and self-care are widespread if not universal. But if I tell you that, I am being empathetic.
I could say that this impossible demand you make of us – no pity AND no empathy – is a good example of the impossible demands you seem to make of yourself. You ask us to be sociopaths who do not care and have no feelings, and maybe that’s also what you are asking of yourself. But that would be a patronising attempt at long-distance psychotherapy of a virtual stranger, so I won’t say that.
I could say thank you for opening up and making this space where we can all be honest, perhaps in ways that we find it hard to be with friends and family. But that sounds like I’m sucking up.
So I’ll just say “I fucked your mother” and let this comment die in moderation, never making it to the thread. 🙂
Thanks Tim.
I’m sorry that you slept with my mom.